Pathetic Blogger

So I have been a pathetic blogger. My last post was June 27TH on my 47TH Birthday when I got rid of my scale. Well so much has happened and I now feel the time to post about it. I started eating a little more raw on June 6TH when I started drinking a juice every morning that I made called the Great Eliminator. Well just by the name you can tell what it was suppose to do. NOPE not with this kid. Maybe a little more the 1ST week but after that nope, nada, nothing. I do like the way it fills me up even though it isn't the most yummy tasting juice. It consists of 1 large beet, 10 carrots, 1 large cucumber, and I started adding 2 apples to make it so I could get it down and hold it down. It was tasting a little too much like dirt and bitter.

I have not weighed myself since getting rid of the scale unfortunately I have had to go to the doctor where they did that for me. JERKS!! Why for an ear ache do you have to know how much I weight? I know it is procedure but really?

So even though I have not been off soda pop ALL soda pop since June 6TH I have put on weight. Not exercising I am sure has a lot to do with it. The massage industry at least my clientele have gone back to their homes in Canada or out of state until October so I haven't been doing as many massages either. This adds to my lack of activity. Yes I am giving you my excuses here. I really need to get this off my chest. I am tired of worrying about being skinny. Yes I want to be healthy but I am tired of not enjoying life due to this. On the other hand I am not enjoying the way I look and feel.

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I have been seeing doctors starting back in April to see about getting some surgery done for my bladder. Having been pregnant with 7 babies and giving birth to 5 of them (the other 2 were miscarried) my body has been through the wringer. I am unable to exercise comfortably for an extended period of time without having to stop to use the bathroom. So this is one big reason I am wanting to have this done. I went in last Thursday the 35TH for the bladder test. It wasn't fun and kind of awkward. It made me have flash backs to holding my full bladder for ultra sounds for my babies. No bundle of joy found on that one. he he Test results will be revealed to me on Thursday August 1ST.

I also have been feeling tearing in my stomach where I had had hernia repair surgery in 2006. I went in to see the Dr. for this procedure and by feeling he felt 2 hernias above where the netting was from the last repair. I went in on Tuesday the 30TH for CT scan. I will get results for this in the next few days from what I was told.

I am also now waiting on a referral for a cardiac doctor so they are able to do the above surgeries. I had a heart attack when I was 32 so the doctors are super paranoid about me going under the knife at this time without all the tests being done and me having full clearance.

I am not asking for sympathy or anything like that just getting this off my chest. I am ready to be back to feeling good and having my energy level back.

Hope all of you are doing well. Hugs, Bobbi Jo

Joining Connie And Going SCALE FREE

MONDAY, JUNE 27, 2011

I read this on Connies blog Fat to Fit Mommy! This just struck me like I was listening to my own story. So I am joining Connie in getting rid of my scale.I am tired of determining my emotional state by how much I weigh. I will not let it rule my life any longer. I too 

am striving to be healthy and fit. 

What better gift can I give myself on my Birthday thanFreedome from the scale! 

Scale Free

I ran into my friend Jolene from Healthy Discoveries at a party this weekend. Just being in her presence made me make better choices. I only had one glass of Sangria and one bite of dessert.

Jolene is working on something pretty exciting and talking to her about it really got me thinking some things.

While talking to her about being healthy...weight was never mentioned once. We talked about activity and healthy choices. We talked about motivation and the rewards of making those choices.

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My life has been ruled by the scale since I was a teenager. It can make or break my day. I'm throwing out the scale!

My focus needs to be on health and not weight. Because weight doesn't tell the entire story!

And it shouldn't determine how I feel about myself.

Starting today....I will work towards making healthy choices and adding more activity to my life.  I will reward myself with things other than food. I will hydrate my body with water instead of coffee and soda.

I desire to be HEALTHY and STRONG!  Which means....I'm going to have tochange my twitter handle. HA!

When we pay attention to our desires, our daily energy levels increase. And embracing your desires will sustain your health! ~ Jolene Park


Hugs, Bobbi Jo

Raw Food

Today is Saturday June 18 Th, 2011. I started almost 14 days ago with the Raw Food Life Force Energy program (Natalia Rose). I have to be honest I have not been 100% on not eating flesh (red meats) but have cut WAY WAY back. Just a couple meals in the past 2 weeks. I have quit drinking sodas and am avoiding sugar. Like I said I am not 100% on all of it but I do notice a difference in the way I am feeling. I have also gone organic on all that I can. It is a little more expensive but I think so worth it.

 I had been studying up on Raw eating for the past few months but kept going back on forth on how will I do this and feed the carnivor  family. For this reason I have not gone all out but I can say I am about 90% there. I am juicing every morning, eating fruits & veggies and enjoying the feeling. I have my juice in the morning called " The Great Eliminator", it is 1 lg. beet, 1 lg. cucumber and 10 med. carrots, and juice away and drink. It is not the most tasty thing in the world but I stay full for a good amount of time. Way more than if I were to have cold or hot cereal or an omelet.  A little crazy that this weird tasting concoction can do this for you. I do have to WARN you : If you try this and you do it for a couple of days your waste (fecal mater) will be pink or red, don't be alarmed it is the beets that does this to you. I know to TMI but you need to know these things to save you a trip to the doctors due to funny colored poo!

Feelings Of Let Down

 Have you ever felt like you are letting people down including yourself? Feelings of what do I do now? How do I move forward? How do I get to where I want and need to be when I don't feel like it?
 Just worn out.........tired...........stressed to the limit..........what do I do now?
 Hugs, Bobbi Jo

I Had Good Intentions

Don't faint I am finally blogging again on this blog. All through December I had good intentions on starting off eating healthy, exercising and kicking it up more and being the fit person I so want to be. Well that all went flushing down the toilet.
 To be honest I am not sure what happened. I have tried to start HCG 3 times but I can't do it. I like food and trying to eat so strict with Alan being home all the time, feeding the family, stress and life I am a week person at this time I guess.
 I don't want this to turn into a downer post of complaints and ranting but I do need to get a few things off my chest. So since Nov. my hubs hasn't had a steady job, I am feeling the stress more to make more money but I also struggle with being home enough to take care of my family and home. Struggle with wanting to have fun and do fun things. Now mind me my work is pleasurable but I love being home cooking, cleaning and organizing. Do the Donna Reed thing ( this is what my hubs use to say I did, if any of you even know who Donna Reed was.) The last 4 weeks I have been dealing with depression, not sure why. Dealing with being tired a good portion of the time (this is not usual for me at all). I have put back on about 15 pounds since the start of the new year well maybe a little bit before because I have struggled with the fluctuation of  5-8 pounds.
 I went to the Dr. on Monday. I got my yearly exam and she said all looked well other than my blood pressure was a little elevated again so I am back on blood pressure meds. She is running blood work on me. This week I am dealing with an earache that isn't fun but I am sure will get through it soon.

I really need to get back on the get fit & healthy band wagon. Does anyone have any suggestion for me? I am lacking the motivation to get out there and do it. I know they say JUST DO IT but I need something a little more right now. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. REALLY!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!
 Like I said I don't want to be a downer I try to be upbeat but I just feel like the world is closing in on me and I am not sure how do handle it. Maybe I just need a mini vacation and a good cry. he he
 So I am working on this change in my life along with the other things going on.  Hugs, Bobbi Jo

Been Busy

 I've been busy but thought I should check in. I am down 3 pounds as of the beginning of the week. I haven't really been doing any working out but eating a little better and keeping busy with work and working on the massage room with Alan.
 I still need to make my vision board. Is there anyone else that makes them? How do they work for you? Would love to hear feed back.
 So now I need to finalize my work out plans and get to it. I am such a OCD person that it has to be the right time and timing for me to start. Maybe this is my problem?
 Keep a smile on your face. Hugs, Bobbi Jo

Welcome To The Year Of Wellness

 Good-bye 2010 and Hello to the year of Wellness 2011. Today we start out on a positive note 1-1-11! Check that out!  Being in school this last year along with many trials that came I let myself go, physically. I have not been excercising or taking time for ME! I know how importent it is to do this. So I decided that this is the year of Wellness for me.
 I am starting out slow since I haven't been physically active on a daily basis for a long while. I will add to the program each week and make my progress there. I am usually an all or nothing type of person but I know this would just make me sore and not want to do anything. So I will work through the OCD and do it this way.

 Working on eating healthier and exercise I should be able to drop some weight, firm up and feel great.
 I am using a program that combines Body for Life & tips from people who are fit and fabulous that I admire. After 30 days of changing my eating drasticly this program will start. 2 years ago when I was able to drop a good amount of weight I did it and now I can do it again.
 My goal is not only drop weight and get firm but be able to ge an example to my clients of what good health looks like and feels like.
 This year has brought many challenges and  it has shown me that I can do ANYTHING that I want to if I put my mind to it.
 So ready for feeling good and looking good. Hugs, Bobbi Jo