Goal From Now Till 2012

My goal starting now till 2012 is to do something of a workout no matter how long the work out is or if I have to do several small workouts to feel the effects.

I have had a mind set and need to change it. That mind set is that I need to work out at least 30 to 45 minutes starting, sweat like crazy for my workouts to be effective. That is not the case any thing and everything can help to get in the habit of working out everyday.

So this is my goal! Hugs, Bobbi Jo

Disuse Atrophy

I have been frustrated with my workouts or trying to work out. Finding out that after two or three weeks of not using muscles they start the process of disuse atrophy. This is where the muscle is not being used so it shrinks and goes into an almost stagnant stage. Well during the first 4 weeks of recovery the muscles I used were for walking, going to the bathroom, eating and talking. Needless to say these last 2 muscles are in great shape. My endurance just flat out stinks and I tire out going up our stairs in our house to our room. NOT COOL!! But I will chug along and it WILL get better, regain my strength, stamina and energy again.

So Friday I woke up feeling like I had been kicked in the kidneys. Such bad pain and I rarely get back pain other than when I was in labor. So I took it easy I did my cardio workout on the treadmill but that was it.

I then had a craving for buttermilk so I had a cup, low fat mind you. It was so good so I had another cup. Then I felt so bloated and gross. My daughter and I had to go to the store and I couldn't wait to get home. I had some stomach issues but felt better with that by night time.

Today still sore in the kidney area so I took today off.

Tomorrow I am going to share my new changes that I have decided to make, set my new goals for this week (some might be repeats) and workout log.

Hugs, Bobbi Jo

Figured It Out

This morning as I was on the treadmill I figured out what is the most frustrating right now for me. My endurance just plain SUCKS!! Not a word I often use but at 10 min on the treadmill I am about dying huffing and puffing and I am only walking at a fast pace. By 15 I am done and feeling it so much in my legs.

So how long of being mostly sedentary does it take for the body to lose it? Before the surgery I did a stress test and at a major fast pace and a heart beat being very high to the point of gasping I was able to do it longer than the usual according to the techs. Wow my body is in super bad shape. This is a real light bulb moment for me.

Would love input from anyone who knows about this & can share. Hugs, Bobbi Jo

Start a New Day

So after yesterdays rant (sorry about that but it needed to be done!) I did my cardio workout even though all I wanted to do was continue to eat junk.

I decided I needed to get back on board again so I decided on a large salad for dinner. This seemed to help out a good bit.

And I woke up this morning back to the same weight as I was at the beginning of the week. Now it is the start of a new day . I am thinking maybe I need to avoid posting on days like yesterday but I try to keep this blog real. It really does help to deal with issues by writing them down even if they no seem to make sense to someone else or maybe it can help someone think Oh yea I know that feeling and maybe send me a comment that might help me out.

The kiddos have today off from school other than Gabby who needs to do hers today to keep on schedule. I am going to get off the computer and head down to do some work on the treadmill then weights on the upper body.

Check in later! Hugs, Bobbi Jo

Dealing With Be Disappointed

So things have been going okay this week. Dealing with a little disappointment then feeling up then back down.

The ups have been losing a little weight this week and working out. The downs putting a little weight on due to eating too late, waiting too long to eat and lack of sleep. The weight is not that much that has come on but enough that the OCD person who wants everything to go her way doesn't like.

The workouts are another downer in a way. I can't work out the way I want to! This is so aggravating for me. I get tired so easy and can't do much, this makes me frustrated to no end.

I was trying to do this great 4 min. workout that has been proven to boost your metabolisim for up to 36 hours after wards. It was tested and proven. Well I decided this was just the thing I needed to help me next to my cardio workout on the treadmill and weights. The first part of the exercise is squat thrusts. I tried really I tried so hard but my legs didn't want to kick out and I couldn't even jump them down into place. I don't know if is the freshness of recovery but I was so mad. Mad at myself for not being able to do something so easy.

Then today Gabby and I went shopping. I wanted to get a blouse to go with some of my winter skirts and a blouse for working at the spa. I tried a bunch on they were either too tight in the arms, through the back or the lower belly. I still don't know if all the swelling is down from the surgery but I truly wanted to scream and then cry in the store. I was so angry at myself for letting my body get to this point.

So I did what every rationally minded woman would do I went to lunch. I went to Sonic and blew a major part of my calories on that meal of the day to pacify the anger I had for myself.

I am trying to not be too hard on me but with having to go back to work next week I am scared I am not going to be able to perform as well due to being so physically and having gone soft (literally) in my upper body.

I am sure some of my problem is due to feeling stressed. I am having some vein surgery done on Tuesday. I have 4 veins that need major help and I am seriously more worried about these than I was the 2 surgeries I just had. Stupid I know but I am. The Dr. said I would be able to drive the next day and go back to work so I guess I should stress too much.

So I am working on keeping up positive thoughts, visions and kind of the fake it till you make it attitude. This works until I look in the mirror or try on clothes then it all goes away so then I have to pick myself up again.

So enough with this rant but I guess this is why I started this blog was a way to get it out and work on the faults I have.

I know I will get stronger, healthier and leaner but I am not a patient lady by any means.

I would love to hear how you all deal with things like this. I am trying to learn how to myself.

Looking to a brighter tomorrow. Hugs, Bobbi Jo

Taking Up Less Space

Found this on Kelly Olexa's blog The Kelly O Show. She is an inspiration with her passion to work out and her vlogs are fun!

Anyways I had to have this hanging in my house. I didn't even bother framing it I needed to see this and start to make changes.

This is so true!!

This is my new goal or motto :" Take Up Less Space". Meaning getting leaner, stronger and smaller.

It is weird I don't feel like I look as big as what I weigh. Does anyone else feel this way?

Yet when I see myself in a picture or mirror I see it and think EWWWW! How did I get to this point again.

A while back I posted that I wasn't using my scale well that was working for a while. Unfortunately my clothes were getting tighter and I am feeling lousy.

So my scale is back to help me keep track as I lose the 86.2 pounds I need to lose.

I have got to get off this weight and get down to where I am me again. I started feeling it in 2009 when I was working on myself, exercising, eating OK but still drinking Diet Coke ( a LOT), hot chocolate and taking in a lot of sugar along with eating out way too often. Then when I started school full time I put my fitness on the back burner along with trying to eat healthy.

So my goal is to become healthy, strong and lean. I will never be a twig my body isn't made to be that way. I use to do power lifting when I was in Jr. high and high school so my legs are big no matter what and I am large boned. Yes I did have it tested and my wrist is bigger than 6 inches around. I have finally excepted that I will not be a skinny gal who can wear anything and look great due to my body shape. I think this is a great thing.

I started out last week as you might have read in my last post from yesterday. Starting out didn't go so great. But today is a new story actually it go better over the weekend. I was feeling very depressed and stressed with life but things are slowly falling into place for me. I am excited about the changes that I see in my upcoming future.

So what am I doing that is different?

Changes for this week:

1.Charting workouts

2.Counting calories

3.Making small changes in eating

4. Praying more for help in this process

5. Not doing this on my own...having Coco and friends who support & help

6. Setting goals

7. Doing this for ME!!

This is it for this week.

I would love to hear from all of you of what you are doing to help keep you motivated.

Hugs, Bobbi Jo

Starting Out Started Out Bad

I have been looking forward to being recovered from my surgeries and starting fresh with new eating and such. Not expecting to be put on solid foods the day after my surgeries my plans fell through. I am extremely OCD and my plan was to go strait from the fasting to HCG to drop at least 15 to 20 to give me that boost to move on.

Last week of Course I had to start on either the Monday or on the first day of the month so I picked the first day of the month. I hate to say this but stress got the best of me. Then depression hit and I wasn't eating terrible but certainly not sticking with the 500 calories on the HCG diet.

After trying for a few days of this and letting my emotional eating get the best of me I have had a change of plans.

And so the journey begins. Till tomorrow. Hugs, Bobbi Jo