Sadness In The Afternoon

This is me

This is how I am feeling right now.

I am so sad and feeling very down, defeated and disappointed in ME.

Feelings of hate towards myself, feelings of doubt flooding my mind. 

I just went back and read posts from when I started this blog.

I had posted at the start of my weight loss journey and my start to living a healthy life.

Reading all the posts and the progress I had made and then looking at where I am now is just so depressing.

Thinking how did I let myself get where I am now? I know how I did, I didn't continue to take care of me. I put everything else in front of taking care of me. When I started back to school I just slowly stopped exercising and forgot how I felt. 

So after a pity party I need to move on and get back on the take care of Bobbi Jo health band wagon.

I am feeling so unhappy with me. Not liking me, the way I look, the way I feel and the way I move.

Anyone who has ever struggled with being overweight can relate to me and the way I am feeling.

I have decided to start posting as I did before when I started the blog. A daily account for my workout, eating and what is going on in my life. After all this is my blog and my journal. 

I will be posting my goals for the week, workouts, emotional status and anything else that I need to get out of my system to help me get back and stay on track. 

Getting priorities in order are number 1 right now. 

Bobbi Jo