Desire To Change

Love this it is so true.

For a little while now I have been content to stay where I am in my life, as far as my fitness & health.

I feel like I am finally at the point where my desire to change is much greater than my desire to stay the same.

I honestly got sick of being who I had physically become. 

When I looked in the mirror I would look away quickly so as not to see how much I have let myself go.

Feel ugly and sad is not how I want to live or how I want to feel.

I am liking the way I am feeling. I have a renewed joy for health, life and relationships.

I feel excited and I haven't felt this in such a long time.

I am working on being aware of how my body feels. Noticing when I am actually hungry instead of eating out of sadness, anxiety and depression. 

I suffered from depression before and anxiety for many years off and on but after the bank robbery it got worse. I was having a hard time being out in public and I just wanted to sleep all day and all night. Not having motivation or a desire to be functioning as a person.

On the medication commercial they say "Depression hurts", it does and you don't know why you feel the way you do when you should be happy due to being so blessed with life.

I know some of the positive way I am feeling is due to the antidepressants that I am taking for the PTSD.

I am so glad that I am feeling this way. 

I am feeling hope to get back to the Bobbi Jo that has been missing. 

I also am leaning on God like I have never done before. 

I have tried to do this before, many times but never asking for Heavenly Father to help me and having faith that he will. 

Hugs, Bobbi Jo